First Swim Meet + Bonus

Okay.
In practice recently, my goggles have come off when I go off the blocks. I've tried to make it better, adjusting different things, but I was still having a problem with them today. I tightened them as much as I could stand with my new sore eye that I got from yesterday's practice.
First event was the 200 medley relay. I swam breast, and it was alright. I was in the B group, which is good. Last year I was always in C.
During the second warm-up, I did starts mostly. They all felt great, boosting my confidence.
Next event for me was 200 free relay. I was the slowest in my group, by three seconds, but I've also been swimming for the shortest amount of time. B group for this one too.
Last event was supposed to be my favorite, the 100 open breast. I went off the blocks, hit the water, and my goggles came off immediately. They were in my mouth, like a horse, and went around the upper back of my neck. As I swam, it became more difficult to breathe. I moved the goggles from my mouth. Now they went from the back of my neck to right underneath my jaw, like a noose. It was worse. I tried to move the back strap without falling behind too much.
In the end, I came up with a 1:37. My best last year was a 1:29. Disappointing... next time must be better.
End.


New.
straight from the madre's mouth.
unedited. one personal comment. bonus point if you find it.

if youre not going to do this, then we might as well stop lessons;. theres no point continuing. if this is the end of the cello era, the its yyour decision not minel. i cant figure out whats driving your thinking. for some reason this advice you will not take, but youre the loser in the end. we have long term vision. you dont put our advice to good use. stop fighting it. i dont know what youre trying o punish us or show us each us. i think youre hurting yourself. we've already done college this is your rurn and you seem to be digging in your heels. i'm begging you, try out for it. finally satisfy yourself. you're up for it. you have to be ready to audition. its nice to spend time with friends, but you have to decide whats important. if youve got big issueswith us, we need to go to counsel. dont be held back by anger or all this that is bogging you down. you need counseling. dont' ruin your life. i dont want to see you like this. we can't make you go. this is the biggest mistake in your life. youre just plowing ahead into it. everyone s telling you not to. this is incomprehensible. youre not making a poitnl; youre bringing yourself down.. think about counseling. fuck you. think about scholarships. you have to be willing to even consider it. stop tearing yourself down look at what you can do well. you are at an important part in your life. the decision you make is going ot be a big one, and when you blow it, it's going to be big. remember its all up to you. i can't urge you enough to try out for that symphony.